I'm Done

I hate you so much. 

Because you make me hate myself.

There are no words to describe how much I despise you.

This is the last time I will try to be at peace with you. 

I'm done.

BECAUSE OF YOU

By Kelly Clarkson

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Ra-Om7UMSJc

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

What is the Greatest Love Story?

What is the greatest love story? 

It's you. 

And me.

Together.

There is no greater love than this.

At first hello, at first smile

In laughters and tears,

And the silence in between,

There was "us".

There was nothing I could ask for.

You were too good to be true.

But if there was any truth in what we have shared,

It was that I loved you. 

Fiercely.

Tenderly.

So dearly.

I didn't mean to. 

I didn't want to. 

And I swear I kept stopping myself from doing so. 

But how I miserably failed! 

I never knew that I'm capable to love that much. 

And you loved me too.

Fiercely.

Tenderly.

So dearly.

The love that I have always wanted was in you.

You own it.

You own mine.

But it was gone and would never be mine. 

Your love was never mine. 

Could never ever be mine.

I was such a fool to even try.

Yes, I have fought for this love. 

I would over and over again

If only it was meant to be. 

My love for you will always be yours,

And though your love is the one that I have always wanted,

I could never ever have you.

You had to go. 

And so did I. 

My greatest love will just be in my memory.

In yours.

So what is the greatest love story?

Nothing. 

Because there is no "us".

Not a Do-Nothing-Bitch

I get my hair treated regularly, let my tresses down once in a while especially on a nice dress with a comfy glittery flops that show off my well-pedicured toes. I put on a pink blush every now and then after puffing powder on to complement my not-so-fair skin. I curl my lashes and line my eyes to reveal its glow that was snatched by lack of sleep. I put on a nude lipstick to finish a simple elegant look that will go well with my attire. I indulge on a personally hand-picked cologne for a sweet girly scent. Everyday i look at myself on the mirror feeling satisfied and i leave with a smile on my face ready to face the day. 

But then I'm the kind of girl you wouldn't want to mess with. You may think i am all nice and curvy but I am more than that. My mind is a well of intelligence and wisdom of the deepest thoughts. My heart is kind but it is never frail. My hands are smooth but they are strong. My legs are fine but they are swift. My eyes are truly the windows to my soul, you'll burn in its fury. My mouth are soft but my words will make or break you, as I pleased. 

I train and beat myself to be physically and psychologically able. I run, read and rest to my heart's content and pleasure. I work diligently and love passionately. I fight to win and take pleasure in victory. I have a mind of my own and speak my own when needed. I am not a damsel in distress. I am not a do-nothing-bitch. 

So the next time our paths crossed, take a second look. I am more than your first. 

Tethered

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to pollute your mind with my arrogance and abhorrence. I should have arrested the thoughts the moment they've been creeping in me, yet i've allowed them and got me tethered on the notion that i'm still nice, when I'm no longer. I'm sorry you met me at my worst. For your sake, I'll try to shut down the demons  inside and somehow be a better friend.